Sometimes you have to push yourself too hard to find your limits. Sometimes that means a step backwards in development or confidence. I learned these lessons at the BRC Showjumping qualifier, along with some pretty key lessons in how to ride my horse. Regular readers will know that Beau loves to jump. In fact he lives to jump! He cannot get enough - he once finished an arena eventing round on his own even though he parted company with his rider at fence 3! His ears stayed forward for the rest of the day. He loves it so much, that when pointed in the general direction of anything like an obstacle he transforms into an Exocet missile, and that is my problem. I have no issue with going over jumps - happy to a metre and above if there's enough power and willingness under me, but i do like to feel in control in between the fences. Don't get me wrong - i have not been the bravest lately. I had gone from being a complete wimp who was petrified at the thought of riding a